While your exclamation is both a philosophical and thought provoking one, I would have to say that my life is somewhat unaffected by the disasters and the crushing absence of morality in the world we live in today.
Alright so this sleep pattern is giving me a lot of trouble now haha, i’m so tired and sleepy, waking up from those naps is such a huge hassle..
Another problem with it is that if I have things to do during the day I can’t nap at all, which I hear is devastating and I’m going to guess that that’s about right.
I have a group meeting tomorrow and it’s not like I can sleep every so often rofl, that might not come across as too good, so I have to break the pattern and sleep for a long time so that I can stay awake the whole day tomorrow, meaning I’d probably have to start from scratch tomorrow night! I might pansy out and try a different cycle that has more hours of sleep per day then slowly lessen the amount because this is honestly ridiculous!
So one of the weirdest things about this whole sleep pattern is that I’m not really recognizing when one days ends and when the next begins…the only thing that tells me that’s it’s Day 2 is the fact that it’s been 24ish hours since my very first post about this haha.
I’m still feeling ok, but starting to get less alert and my ability to multi-task is diminishing, mind’s is only really focusing on one thing at a time. I expected this though as the effects of the extended sleeps from yesterday are wearing off I’m now really only relying on the sleep I get from napping.
The last two naps I’ve had I’m not too sure whether I actually went to sleep, maybe I did but if so then they were really shallow and short. I’ve been sleeping on my back which is not how I usually sleep but if I sleep how I usually sleep things get way too comfortable and I definitely won’t wake up for my alarm.
I’m still really early in this whole adaptation thing and from what I’ve read, if it does work then it won’t for a bit longer. The thing is that I’m feeling really tired but I don’t feel sleepy, I’m not fighting to keep awake but I do feel kind of zombie-like but maybe it’s still a bit early to feel sleepy, I’ll just have to wait and see.
The world didn’t sing without you” —
Well it’s not REALLY a woops.
I extended the length of naps I was meant to take today since I figured i still needed to make up for the sleep debt I owed after staying up all night the night before.
At this point I’m thinking of it sorta like a laptop battery and sleeping being the way of recharging. I figured that started to adjust my sleep patterns by reducing the amount of sleep I got was like trying to charge an empty laptop battery by a lot less than you usually would?
Long story short, slept longer than I should have, two naps that were 3 hours 11am - 1pm and then another from 5pm - 8pm.
In the middle of those two I felt ok, still bed ridden and felt really foggy/hazy. But at 8pm when I woke up felt all good again, normal even, so I decided that I would start shortening the naps back to 20 minutes and even if I couldn’t get to sleep I’d just lie there for the allocated time anyway.
As I said, I just woke from a scheduled sleep and feel normal-ish!
I’m even gonna get started on an assignment of mine, hopefully it’ll be done by the time I have my 6am nap.
Aaaand I just realized how little sleep I’m getting again eeek.
So just woke up from that first nap, feeling pretty good, better than I thought I’d feel considering I hadn’t slept the night before and better than I felt when I wrote that very first post, woke up just as my alarm went off.
It’s not to the level where I could go out and see people/be alert, kind of more along the lines of 4-5am tv series watching state and it’s kind of scary to think that I won’t have that one big sleep to make everything feel better…I’m assuming that it’s gonna get a lot worse but so far so good?
So…what have I been up to since my last post? Absolutely nothing.
BUT. That friend I visited in Melbourne came over during her holiday which was amazing! She taught me how to drive because I’m ridiculously behind haha.
Anyway, I’m heading into exam season which, to me, means a few weeks of updating my Facebook status to complain about study or to say how much of a good time I’m having while I procrastinate and then around 3-6 statuses to let everyone know that I’m about to die of exhaustion while I cram my semester’s worth of work into a few hours…I should probably change the way I study.
To be honest though, I’m so stupid when it comes to deadlines, it seems like the only thing that motivates/inspires me is being 12 hours away from the deadline…THAT probably needs to change too.
ANOTHER stupid thing I do is I fuck up my sleeping times really reeeally badly. I don’t know how or why I do this to myself but it gets SO annoying. I think it might be the fact that I have a really strong aversion to actually getting to sleep. I’m one of those people who lie there for aaages without being able to fall asleep and I haaate it so much. I get so bored!
Anyway, around the same time last year I did this thing where I had six 20 minute naps during the day meaning I had 2 hours of sleep every day. The main reason why I decided to do this was because I found sleep way too boring to be done and tried to spice it up a little, another big part is because I found it on the internet and it sounded pretty good, 2 hours of sleep a day is appealing to someone who doesn’t like sleep, but I couldn’t find a lot of legit sources to tell me whether or not it was a good idea…my upbringing and general thinking was all “wtf that sounds stupid, why would you do that to yourself” but at the same time I was all “this. sounds. awesome.”
So wanted to figure out for myself what it was like because the only thing I really found on it were blogs that either completely hated it or completely loved it and to be honest I’m kinda thinking that the people who loved it are lying. But I want to know!
Last time it I did it for only around 2ish weeks and from what I remember I felt pretty ok, didn’t feel good but didn’t feel too bad either, probably because I’m used to not sleeping haha. It did start off badly, but then it also did start getting better. Problem was that my last exam finished and as soon as that was done I started hanging out with friends and I knew it would be impossible to nap every 4 hours so that ended pretty quickly.
So yeah…I’ll try it out again since I’ve got the free time to do the napping and I’m bored and I’ve got exams/assignments to do.
I’ll try to blog about it and see if what I go through matches the other things I’ve read!
Ok, I have to admit, half the reason I’m writing this right now is because I really don’t want to be studying for the two mid sems I have in 2 nights…
The other half is because I was just recently in Melbourne and I think my tumblr has sort of become a diary I like to keep that documents this randomly overseas-y year I’ve been having…
Anyway, Melbourne’s going to be one of those places that I’ll be visiting regularly because my BSTFREND4EVA lives durr. I kinda forgot how weird two people can be together and it was amaaaze!
She had a couple of midsems herself to study for so I spent a lot of time at their uni. Actually, now that I think about it, it might not have been that much time…but in comparison to how much time I’m at my own uni, it’s a lot! Her lectures made my head spin, I remember when I use to at least sort of be able to keep up with real science lectures but now it seems as though I’ve reverted into not being able to pronounce the really long words :(
After uni we’d just hit up stuff in the city!
I’m proud to announce that I can find my way from natalia’s house to Flinder’s Street, Melbourne Central and Melbourne Uni. I know, I know, I’m a geographical genius, ladies please, no need to undress. Nat’s House —> Flinder’s is one train ride, Flinder’s —> Melbourne Uni is one tram ride that passes Melbourne Central…I’m so good at transporting my self…
Hahaha I’m just kidding, the first time I went out of the house myself I had Nat calling me like every 15 minutes. And then had to be on the phone to her to find her at Melbourne Uni. But at least now I know!
By the way, Melbourne Uni is sooo pretty. It’s like a tourist attraction. If I went there, it would be compulsory for people who visited me to tour that university. Because it is so pretty. I don’t think I’ve ever been so jealous about a campus before!
Also. The sushi in Melbourne nearly made me cry. I’ve been telling this to everyone and I’m not even exaggerating, I nearly openly wept in public because of how much I loved the sushi there. I’d usually lie about close calls like this but that’s just how good it was! Ugh. I’m so hungry now…
Anyway, the best part of the trip is obviously just being able to spend time with Nat and this random asian girl that lives with her…actually, the best part was spending time with Nat and the mother fucking amazing sushi..hehe just kidding Soe, it was awesome finding someone who probably has a lower uni attendance than I do and studying the marvel that is the Australian accent could keep me entertained for hours.
For next time, I’m going to remember to actually write about the days right after they happen! I’m so bad at remembering details :( I’m definitely going to be in Melbourne again though, I love that place too much. So there will be another opportunity for story time!
HATED leaving Nat, it was disgusting, if I didn’t have two tests on Tuesday I would have actually just not gone back to Auckland for a while. I’m not even joking. People might think that I was just saying that to be nice but no, it’s not a joke, I even considered just missing the tests a little bit but that wouldn’t have gone down too well :(
BUT, one thing that I did change was my expected date of moving. Original plan was to finish my last year of uni next year, work for a year and then move to Melbourne. But I’ve just decided to try to finish my first of uni then move straight afterwards. If all goes to plan I would have amounted enough work experience during uni to be able to land a job over in Melbourne…fingers crossed!
Anyway, later tumblr, I have missed you.
Sorry, no can do-sville baby doll
The walls are closing in…shadows appear darker and the paradigm of sleep continues to elude me…life without alcohol seems…meaningless…
Lolol I’m just kidding, I don’t even know whether I used the word paradigm correctly!
I had a 12 hour sleep and woke up at 12 45pm and I was STILL tired, probably because it was meant to be like 4 ish in the morning NZ time, I’ve never really felt jet lag until today.
Didn’t do much exciting things today! Had a chill in the hotel room and nearly fell asleep a few times, ate everything in the hotel room! BUT wow, Canadian milk is so tasty, it has like a Vanilla sort of taste to it, so yummy..
Internet in my hotel room is as fast as the internet I have at home, AND it’s unlimited so like…I’m totally moving here at some point..
I played a few games of hon (don’t kill me urna) and I was playing with <50 ping, SO GOOD. WOW.
Had a bit of a walk around the mall which is apparently meant to be the largest in Canada! Didn’t stay very long so not much to say about it just yet.
Also visited ‘the Path’ which is pretty much an underground system of walkways and shops! It’s so awesome! I have a map that shows but the above-ground city streets and then a completely different map that shows the streets on the Path and the streets that are above it. So badass. Not sure whether to explore the Path or Eaton mall tomorrow!
Canada is veryyy cool.
Chat later, about to watch Limitless!
It’s been a while, I’ve missed you…
BUT, the things that were happening in my life were preeetty dull to be honest, sitting around at home playing games all day every day :D
Just finished exams the other day and also had a pretty full on week which was amazing, tried to get as much drinking and friend-time in as possible before I left to Canada for 4 weeks! Where I have no friends and am not legally allowed to drink…sad face..
So here it is..
Day 1 of my trip sort of thing!
Nothing fancy really, sat on a plane for 12 hours doing absolutely nothing apart from checking up on the people sitting around me from time to time, nearly all of them completely covered their heads with blankets when they slept! Totally understand that, I hate sleeping in public but I also hate trying to breath underneath a blanket so I just tucked my head inside my hoodie lololol.
I was in LA for about 2 and a half hours, was stuck in lines for about 1 and a half, and spent the other hour eating my way through the gigantic meals from BK. Their medium sized meals are larger than our large sized meals! Sooo yummy..
Plane-ing from LA to Toronto was equally as non-fancy BUT there was a lot of french speaking in the announcements since every english sentence was translated, so cool to hear!!
Anyways, that’s that done, going to be attempting to explore Toronto tomorrow!!
I was going to take photos but i didn’t want to reveal my asian tourist side too quickly, and there’s not much more Asian tourist like than walking around looking at things with an SLR camera around your neck…it doesn’t help that I’m asian as well but hey, I’ll let the tourist inside take over, never been here before! Exciting stuff